Does childhood trauma ever go away? I don’t think so… because it is deep-rooted inside me now. I am a victim of bad parenting. I never say this out loud, but now finally I can say all this anonymously. I won’t say I have horrible parents, in fact, I love my mum the most… she sacrificed all her life for us. But all the abuse that I saw since my childhood had affected me deeply… I am afraid to love anymore. I don’t like relationships, I don’t trust people. I am 24 now, and I am still like this. I don’t want to marry someone like my dad.
My traumas fuel my present, but sometimes I cry so much when I remember them. I used to get so scared as a child when I saw all that. Now those things don’t happen, but my childhood trauma didn’t erase out of my mind. They still haunt me a lot.
Watching our parent’s relationship affects us greatly in choosing partner for ourselves so you must be careful . Childhood traumas remain long time , but it is not forever . Nothing remains forever . Next time you remember memories from past , remind and repeat to yourself " it’s all in the past " . I do this when I think about my horrible teenage years with my parents . I still remember it occassionally . I hope it gets better for you . All love , hang on in there.
I am too searching an answer for this I have the same situation I am just a bit young and you writing this fears me that all of this is going to continue for a very long time I know you are going through a lot it’s so relatable but yet I am clueless .
Even i feel my childhood memory haunts me…iif i remember some stuffs…i feel like i am in depression …but can’t change my past.
i have started listening to gaur gopal das video…i think i am improving my mental strength.Try that…just a suggestion.