Does anyone else feels like dying? Cause I do, I believe no one would even miss me! Some would even be happy about it!

Not gonna do anything, just imagining if I was... That would take courage, wich i don't have!

Anxiety

I'm jealous of my friend and I hate it. She's just better at anything that I like. We like a lot of the same things and I hate that. I like fake plants, she likes fake plants. I start watching a new anime, she starts it too and finishes it faster. I like a game, she likes the same game and plays it more. I want a book and start reading it, she reads the same book and finishes it. I do something, she does something and does far better at it. Then I turn to not like that thing and lose motivation to do it because I feel like I'm copying her. I want to improve, but don't know where to start. And it's not helping that her mental health is not the best atm. I want to be there for her, but I feel like I can't

Friends

Can anyone tell me how I can meditate to clear my mind and know what is right and wrong with me, for me, and how I can get the answers from my inner self, and how I can focus on things that really matter.
I have never done meditation before and I get distracted easily.
I started doing meditation but i am very superstitious I started having negative thoughts about things I am very concerned about. So I started believing that the universe wanted me to do this kind of stuff but I don't like it and I know i cannot do it.
So can someone just tell me how I can clear my mind while meditating and how long i have to meditate before searching for the answer from my inner self. 

3am Thoughts

I wonder if we ever overthink eachother at the same time. 

is it bad that i like the pain like the mental pain to the point where i make myself feel numb but it can be to much at times and un-controlling.

Confusion

Stuff has really been going down hill everyday I was about to commit I actually have no friends there’s no meaning my family are all against me brothers calling me some stuff.. I was about to OD today and I was planing on making tomorrow my last day and leave without telling anyone everyday is just harder and harder, if it weren’t for this one girl that has helped me a lot I would be long gone, and I know for a fact I wouldn’t be missed.. a little background info I used to be addicted to cutting drinking and smoking. I was anorexic and now I’m relapsing..Help?. Me . I also got cheated on multiple times but by different guys.. so I don’t feel anything anymore 

Suicidal Ideation

Hey so today I should just confess it ig!!
Well it's not like I knew but u know u kinda know but u just don't accept it....cz it make u think what kind of person are u!!
So I don't think so.....I'll ever be in love....like actual real truly madly in love
For me it's just attraction towards people...... that too on an extent where I too feel like is it love?? Do I really love that guy???
But tbh it's not a real love for me 
I just get attached to them soo much.......that the other person feel like I m in love with them but in reality it's just my attachment 
I won't say that person misinterpreted anything.....that's the way I m functioned......sometimes girls too feel am I bi........it's just my overcare towards them.....for my people nothing else
I should fix this....cz I'm at fault......it will break people's heart
It's not like I won't feel anything.....I will too...the same amt of pain.....oh okay maybe more than that....just like a feeling like I lost someone for forever just like a feeling of heartbroken.. ig it's high time to fix myself



How to deal with the thought that ur partner left u for someone else. 


"Everything that happens with me is only my fault and no one else's." - That is what everyone wants me to say, and that is what I am starting to believe

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