Do You want to express how you feel to your friends but your mind makes you think that you're bothering them and they don't like you so you keep in silence? 

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Frustration

I love my friends. They are so understanding. I just don't want it to change. 

Friends

I have no friends 

Lately I have started feeling that I dont belong in my friend circle. Idk why. We havent fought or anything.. but I feel very strange when I am with them. 

I feel like a complete loner... I have friends but are they really my friends given that they don't care about what I have to say???? 


Lonely

I want to talk to my friends about my problems but I am worried they might think I am putting them down as we are more of a cheerful friend group and the kind of people who would laugh at almost anything. So I feel scared that if I were to talk about anything negative to them they would start not being friends with me, it has happened to me many times before. My friends are people that I can actually be myself around so to loose them because I wanted to just talk about somethings would just send me into an even worse sadness. I went to art therapy for almost a year, I quit it about 2 months ago, my therapist never got a word out of me for the first 6 weeks, I started to talk a bit but never about my feelings and whenever I drew or painted something it would be usually just of some characters of mine or from cartoons I enjoy. I like to watch children's shows so characters from Bluey and stuff like that, I do a little bit of age regressing but I only really do that through art or the stuff I watch. My friends sometimes say stuff about age regression being bad and stuff like that so that doesn't help either, but to be honest I think that's because of what our teacher said about it and how people have a major hatred for it.

 𝐉𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐀 𝐓𝐑𝐈𝐆𝐆𝐄𝐑 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐒/𝐇

I do s/h  and I honestly want someone to know that I know in real life and people that I can trust and I can trust my friends by 100%. We are usually asked to keep secrets alot actually, even by people who hardly know us so I know for a fact that I can trust them with that kind of thing. They could maybe even help me stop and support me maybe.

𝐉𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐀 𝐓𝐑𝐈𝐆𝐆𝐄𝐑 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐇 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐒𝐔𝐈𝐂𝐈𝐃𝐄

I have had a few online friends which I was so lucky to have, as they listened. In a way it was like group therapy but we were best friends. Sadly they are gone now some took their own lives and one was killed. My friends in real life do not know about it but I really do want to tell them as its hard not being able to say anything. As they were friends of mine two.

𝐄𝐍𝐃 𝐎𝐅 𝐓𝐑𝐈𝐆𝐆𝐄𝐑 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒

So if any of you know how I could start a conversation about anything or just even when it is a good time to I would appreciate it oh so oh so much like I can't even express how much I would appreciate it. Thank you.


Mental Health

I just want attention sometimes and I feel really bad for it but I'm always helping my friends and doing everything for them. They just use me they never talk to me, unless they are bored and can't talk to anyone else. They have done that before but it always makes me feel guilty and whenever I tell them I feel bad they make me say sorry to them all for making them seem like the bad guys. They like this guy and I try to tell jokes to get there attention but the two of them walked over to the guy they like and told it to him. Looked like he liked the joke I guess.🙁 So many people say just drop toxic friends but I would have no one and talking to people makes me freak out and I cry just at the sound of things like group projects. I feel like I have to options suffer or be alone and they both sound pretty bad to me.

All are fake here

3am Thoughts

I am part of this super toxic group that I can’t get out of for personal reasons… and tomorrow I have to attend a party with them because the host of the party asked me to be there 2 months in advance. But whenever I hang out with this group they seem to leave me out of things and I get really anxious with thinking they are talking about me and spreading lies. I get stressed. 

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