Do you remember the time we cuddled on your trampoline in high school and looked at the stars all night? We were so young and naive, we didn’t have a care in the world. We were young but our love was so real. 

Do you ever think of that? I dreamt it tonight. I miss you…

Aditya Sahu

Breakup

I'm tired of overthinking.

Exhausted

Pretty blue today... everyday lately.  Can't stop thinking of how much I wanna go....

I don't know where to turn.  Can't use my insurance because I have no money for co-pays. I tried suicide hotlines and chats but they just put me on hold...

I feel like God and the universe are telling me it's ok. It's time

Friends and family are dismissive or don't care... either way it feels the same...who would really lose anything in my absence.. not a soul... just wasting good oxygen at this point


Depression

bro im done with my school yo like im bout to fuck people upn at my school like fr yo the boys at my school trying to beef up to me acting like they finna hit me yo n if they end up hitting me imma throw some hands yo


Other

Im a boy and im 16. I just thought about something. I just realised that im the most pathetic of my friends. No one finds me attractive nor do i get any compliments. Everyone around me gets compliments. One is funny. One is good looking. One has a girlfriend and is hella confident. One is the one i idolize, because he just gets along Everyone and at the same time i feel so uncomfortable talking to new people. I even have forgotten to brush my teeth and to go shower everyday. The reason for forgetting that stuff is because when you  are treated like u are not so Hot or funny ext. Then you just stop trying to look good, because when you think about it. Who are you gonna try to look good for if no one even cares what you look like. Sorry for writing so much. I just had to get this out of my heart. Im just scared to say this to any of my friends. 

Insecurity

Which is best 

Growing Up

Keeping secrets about yourself is good. But sharing way too much and then overthinking about it later is better

3am Thoughts

I feel alone. If I look at my non-expressive and under- communicative partner..from my dysfunctional family or his dysfunctional family..
To all my friends so called cousins n friends..do I have anyone who truly cares for me?

My own parents are extremely abusive, toxic, dysfunctional..
No one even bothers to check up on me.
No so called friend also bothers to check on me if I'm fine livin' alone amidst these times and how am I doing?

Have they got tired listening to me cope up from my cptsd of family abuse (physical, mental) and judged me to be untrying and negative? Like many have said indirectly too..that I should come out of it and accept it all ..wtf as if it's as easy.

I'm hating life. I had almost come out of depression and began to feel loved, take care of myself and all.. but it creeped in again laat night when I found my dad had begun to lie about seeing a therapist (I know years of being emotionally numb and in denial n seeing much it's not easy but today after long..when I woke up..I woke up, that why did I.
I do have one therapy session today evening, it's a part of an initiative, idk if it will be regular.

My work is also very slow.. and I am aware all the depression I had managed to kick away in the past few days, I am aware those feelings creeping in :/

I feel hopeless, very alone, unheard, unseen and lost. :(

Am I loved? Am I cared for? Am I understood?

I'm hearing these phrases for so long:
"My married life sucks", "I'm not happy", "They don't treat me well" and many more.

I'm not married but I'm coming of the age. Does it really that bad? Does marriage really destroy a person's life and well-being?

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