Do you guys think that school bullies turn into good adults. I personally don’t think so. There might be some exceptions but mostly no. 

Yes, in a lot of cases. They also have this social image where most people think they’re actually nice. 

Bullying

Tears of god

Poetry

i am feeling angry yet so cornered. i feel like its my duty to please everyone in my family. they are suggestingg me horrible people to go and meet for marriage purpose. i dont know whats their scrutney criteria. i feel so stressed yet helpless.
those people treat me as i have achieved nothig in my life. well i have done good. i have a permanent job,yet boy's families and even my relatives say things like, you should not work your whole life, you are just a girl, its just a job and what not.
in starting i dont care about them but now its started affecting me. i know i have achieved my childhood dream yet i feel so helpless. why parents of a boy have so much ego that they have given birth to a lord and his wife should only support her. why cant things go mutual. why couples cant support each other...its too much sometimes😭

Frustration

Evryone is going through a lot....
You are not alone.

😇😇

Happy

Its 3am, I cant sleep which usually doesnt happen. Anyways I can hear music thumping outside, like I can clearly hear the bass and beat to it. so I bare with it for a while then finally go outside to scope it out. I hear NO music outside, so now Im thinking Im crazy at 3am. Now im questioning everything, wondering if I even exist. 😕 quarantine sucks

Insomnia

The older I get the more I realize the privilege of working in a job you like, if not you'll destroy your mental health 

Job Dissatisfaction

I was alone and i always were 
But i got used to it until you showed up 
But when you came, you made it bright 
However it was your disguise .
I was't wise but knew how to smile
However your seperation made me wise
Since you left, i became strong 
However i made abusive my thoughts
Now i don't even pray for your return 
However i miss my previous version
Who knew how to stay alive 
As all i do now is pray for afterlife 
I always thought my family would back me up 
However they made it even worse 
I wish I could scream only once 
However i was told I am pretending it hurts
Now all i wish is to stay alone 
But my bad, my wishes always go in oblivion.
I wish I could explain it in words 
How i went through alone with all this hurt 
I can't show how i feel everyday 
Being pathetic kills me everyday 
I always tried to be good son 
However i forgot relation needs actions in return
I was declared useless by someone 
Who seeks my whenever in problem 
I tried for years to make someone smile 
However i failed too in her eyes 
I don't know what to aim at now 
I just wanna feel alive.









It's difficult these days to explain how am I feeling. Much confused, whether it's happiness or sadness, or even any feeling. Everything seems pale, I started losing interest from everything that usually made me enthusiastic. I even dropped college, quit my studies, left my hobbies, kicked my passion. Feeling like it's totally empty, a void of emptiness. Sleeping became an act of escapism, but before my eyes start feeling tired, I don't want to push myself to sleep, because there I will have to get through so many thoughts, so many memories. I try to indulge myself in my mobile phone, until my whole body start feeling absolute tiredness and sleep, right now, I'm doing the same. I've realised that I'm becoming an escapist. Reality is so dreadful, and I just feel comfortable in escaping from it. I think I need someone to help me, I don't know why but I feel like I can't do it alone this time. I'm trying hard, but I just feel nothing, and feels like this life isn't really a life. I miss old me, who was happy, amazing, lovely. I can't do it alone, but so many incidents made me realise that people are so freaky, selfish and..........
I don't want to trust anyone, anymore. Because after some time, they'll break my trust. So many times, I tried to trust people and I get betrayed, ignored, replaced. I don't know why it's only ne who really cares about the relationship. 
I wish I could get a person like me, but nowadays, it seems impossible. I don't need anybody,. because they all will do the same, after getting my trust

3am Thoughts

About six months out from my wife asking for a divorce and my aunts advise when I told her I was ready to date was find someone who loves you more then I love them. She told me she knew my soon to be ex wife didn’t love me as much as I loved her. And when I date to find someone who loves me more. I don’t know how I feel about that advice. Anyone have any other advice? 

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