Do you also feel that there is no point in sharing your “feelings” or current state of mind with others? I kind of put on my dark stuff or nothing matters mood on a random guy. It was just a moment of emotion. I do this from time to time. Something strange. And then I don’t feel related to whatever I said or did. Sometimes it can be fun like okay what would I do hmm. But at the same time my main question why would u do this why would u say this why are u like this whyyyy to myself??
I imagine explaining myself to him. I would actually write him in a short way like I didn’t mean to forget about it (but he already blocked me ahah😂). So now I’m trying to analyze why I keep thinking about this situation for longer than I should: 1) I’m bothered my someone’s opinion of me; 2) I’m bored and have nothing exciting in my life so I just get attached to something empty and make some sort of a big deal out of it. I actually do not communicate with anyone recently. I isolated myself from this world and now sometimes I randomly give these bursts of chaos(( I don’t know about idea of me and others opinion. I guess… but I just in general take this communication and sharing sometimes with doubt. I mean I shared with him but it didn’t make sense as it was just part of me that comes and goes and what I don’t like actually about this whole situation is that it’s only one part of me and here for someone this part becomes who I am. I feel very different emotions, tastes, thoughts and levels in myself and I can’t express them all at the same time of course so the best what I can do: support a general human introduction to each other, don’t give in to vivid emotions and expressions because I mostly regret about it after. And once you already communicate with person you can show deeper moments. I guess it would be a more balanced version. There is more that I will write it down in further posts.
Zak Puckett @ztothephour
its not that you see things that other people cant see, you just recieve more information yes? language kind of sucks for finding understanding, people will just agree instead of using their own words to confirm they get it, then you get so far down the road its not even worth correcting. i’ll through random words out in attempts, at risk of being read wrong, the write people will be inclined to ask what i mean or if i meant “this or that” . i crashcourse myself at people, so i’ll throw out something abstract, but if the association is made… thats a month of small talk that is not necessary. if this resonates with you at all… wel… here i am lol, use me better than my friends do. Who? oh stop you guys… -_- smh
