depression journal entry: I don’t know what I’m doing in my life I feel so confused about everything. I don’t feel like going out I don’t feel like meeting my friends. I have been in the state for such a long time I don’t know if this is how I want my life to go

I journal every day and it makes me clear my head. Today i was going through my old diaries and i was reading what i wrote one, two, three years ago. I remember being so hopeful And carefree and living my life to the fullest. All of my experiences are so fun and makes me nostalgic about the fun experiences that I had with my friends. Everybody has moved on in their life and I am left alone.

When I read my depression journal entry from a few months ago I realise how sad and low I have been for such a long time and I still feel the same way and I haven’t changed. I really think that I have made no growth or progress.

Do you think i should get help? Otherwise i feel like i’m in a rut and i’ll stay in this loop. I don’t wanna read my depression journal entry and feel like i’m still at the same place. I want to improve, i want to become a better person for myself and my family. when i think i’m working on myself, i feel better about myself and feel like i’m being productive