Joy @hummingmoon
Depression
I want to go out… I want to hang out… locking myself into the house… suffocating for me
I don’t know why bt i just can’t get over some stupid things that has nothing to do with my life… in my entire life i have never been that much emotionally vulnerable… not even in my relationship… I got irritated… easily become harsh… don’t like doing anything… just playing lazy… doing social media…
I just loose myself… I can’t find myself… this is not me… I can’t recognize myself… plz someone hold me back… this is not me… feel like nobody give a fuck about it… nobody actually care what i have been through… going through… even if I try to explain someone they don’t listen… even if they listen they don’t accommodate…
I don’t know any more what to do… badly wanna know what i want… can anyday possible someone going to find me…
I feel unfamiliar with my own family…sometimes feel like they don’t give a fuck either…
I hate myself… this much toxicity i have been going through in me myself have never imagined
It happens sometimes. It’s a phase and it shall pass; but still don’t lose yourself. Give some time and space to things. Try doing something you like. Any hobby that be. Pour out all your emotions. Speak it out. Everyone’s got so busy in their own lives that they might not have time for others. This doesn’t mean they don’t care. They do. But probably they can’t show it or even they might be in similar emotional turmoil. What do you like to do the most?
Joy @hummingmoon
I am a clg student so… usually clg,tution,frnds that’s it… I used to be very busy actually… can’t update myself… so literally stop using social media… just listen to any song… that’s it… bt nw I can’t think any moment without social media… and addicted to dramas… may be that’s gimme comfort… bt it’s become obsession… start believing in real life is a fairytale… bt nw that obsession also slap me and tell that’s not… u are fascinating… daydreaming… knowing all these I keep doing that… I wanna get out of the obsession bt it’s live in my subconscious mind… without me knowing how i am doing this… it’s really surprised me… I am very practical… bt nw i just become emotionally vulnerable… this side of me shock me… it’s like i got a heart break… even at stage of my break up… I am not this level of effected… I am really sometimes afraid of myself… nt seemed to be familiar of me…
A person doesn’t remain the same as always. One tends to change oneself with time. Instead of running from oneself, one should try accepting oneself with all the flaws and changes. Do things that you like to do the most; things that makes you happy or gives you joy. If living in a fantasy land helps you to be happy, then so be it. Reality may be harsh at times. When certain things aren’t in our hands, then one should just leave it upon destiny and switch to some other zone, be it fantasy land or anything. Just be happy. Live all the moments of happiness wherever and whenever you get. If there aren’t any such moments, then create them. Don’t miss out on life. Stay happy.
