Can't stop thinking about him, even tho I know we arent gonna make it. I mean we arent even in a relationship:// it sucks I know but yk it's just my imagination and I can do what ever I want. But what if sometime that imagination become a reality? I dont know tbh I just had a huge need to say this to someone. Yall are my besties. I love you!!! You dont have to say anything on this, I'm just sharing my emotions and thoughts.

It's alright for you to feel this way. Just try not to overthink things.

ADHD

Nothing gets better right?

Depression

I kept making senerios inside my head about meeting my ex..how will I react...what will I do ...yes I know it's stupid but couldn't help it....what to do to stop myself from doing it

Love

I feel very happy. Alexa, play “happy” by Pharrell Williams. I am dancing around the entire room. I got up early this morning. I had a healthy breakfast. I took a bath!!! This sloth took a bath today and let me tell you that is rare ngl xd. I exercised. I feel so strong and alive today. I was also productive??? Damn girl, you really did good today. I feel very happy today. Ugh i hope this feeling stays forever. I also talked to my parents on call after 2 days. They were obviously mad at me for not calling them but eh, that wont ruin my mood today. I feel very happy. I know i have said this a lot of times but i feel very happy. Now i’m listening to “What Makes You Beautiful” by one direction. Man, one direction is a bop. A very big one. I feel so very happy today. If anyone tries to ruin my peace today they are gone for real 🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪. Hehe just kidding. No violence my kids. Actually nothing can ruin my mood today. Not even my college, heheue. I think i am gonna go get myself a chocolate pastry to make my day even better. I am gonna ditch the mess food today because that might suck the happiness out me. Hostel food do such y’all. I want to eat home made food so desperately. Mom, i miss you. Please parcel food from home. Thank you love you okay bye.

Happy

Fluffy ate the icing of his cake. Omggggg! That's so amazing! I hope he doesn't loses one life points hahahaha

Pets

To all the teenagers girls.. I want to suggest u something yr which is very important lessons.. I regret of not knowing that things in my teen age.. 
1)- hmesha apni man ki suno.. duniya dari ki bare me jyada Mt socho..
2)- overthinking kbhi Mt Krna jyada nhi to tumhe le dubegi ye overthinking..
3)- hmesha goal decide krke rkho aur uske hisab se action lo.. sahi stream choose kro apne interest k according..
4)- love k chakkar me pdo but kbhi bhi usko 1st priority mt do study se jyada..
5)- tumhe hr chiz krni chahiye school life me coz bad me regret hoti h ki shyness k chakkar me kuc nii kr pai
6)- respect ur parents.. but don't follow their every decision for u if u feel u want something else..
7)- shyness khatam kro.. fear khatam kro.. confidence lao. Boys k attention k pixe mt bhago.. if boys distracting u from studies..
8)- mind apna clear rkho aur hmesha future ka socho, past ka nhi.. 
9)- enjoy kro friends bnao.. memories create kro.. but negative aur jealous people se dur rho.. u don't know jealous people can do anything to harm u.. so jealous people ko identify kro apne friend group se aur htao unko..
10)- don't overthink or stress about anything.. everything will be fine.. don't think about others too much.. . 
11)- I was introvert and i had OCD also so overthinking, stress and intrusive thoughts ne kharab krdi meri life.. mujhe smjhane wala bhi koi nii tha... 😔
Mai nii chahti ki aur ldkiyo ya ldko ka life kharab ho OCD k wajah se ya immaturity k wajah se.. aur hn apni problems apne har ek friends ko batate Mt firo jo trustworthy na ho.. 
sirf unhi ko btao jo tumhari real me care krte h...


Teenagers

It's like I'm drowning I'm losing all my friends even though I have been to good to them always helping and there was a point I use to care ABT this things but ryt now I feel nothing I Guess. I'm numb .I guess this friendship word doesn't have any place in my life at this point.

Friends

I wanted to help people. Somewhere in this anxiety I lost this purpose. I am feeling guilty now what I have become in this depression. I don't know what to do. People are fighting in this covid to get food on the table. And I am just depressed, unproductive. 

Mood Disorder

When we were young 
We used to get scared from darkness
Now get happiness, peace in that darkness
It's so strange
When we were young we all wished to be in our twenties 
N now we all just want to go back to that care-free toddler's age
But there is one thing in my life still same
My eagerness to know everything abt my mum
I just want to hide myself in her Anchal
My famous qoute from "looking for alaska"
Which I wanna dedicate her
"I know so many last words but I'll never know her's"
When relatives say I just look like my mum,
When ppl say na I m her xerox copy
It feels somewhat relief 
I don't know anything abt her...absolute nothing her behavior, her likes dislikes...nothing 
Still When ppl say, it feels like she is wid me, 
She is in heaven still I can feel her presence.....it might sound insane but  I can feel her....I can feel her love❤
Miss u mum❤


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