Bhai had gone for drinks with friends and at the bar an uncle from my locality came with his friends and he saw me.
Kinda scared he'll tell parents or someone. 😐🙂
Lag gaye ghar pe pata chala toh 

🙏🙏
Pata nahi usne photo nikali kya 😐

Haan... I mean it'll be a very big fight at home but then i won't have to lie (i kinda sometimes felt ki bata du ki main utna bhi sidha nahi hu) 
 and isi bahane ne band bhi ho jaye daaru gharwalo ke wajah se  . Ll

I swear Bhai mere se fattu insaan aur koi nahi hai 

Bachpan se fattu hai ab Umar ho gayi fir bhi fattu hi hai 🙂

Tumse thoda bada hu...
It's just the fight I can't bear once they come to know. 


Yeah. 
I guess let's see if he tells then I'll maybe just accept it. 

Family

meko lgra he kuch months baad meko kuch ho jaega meri stomach problem thik ni ho rahi he or meko smjh ni ara he kuch bhi pdhai ma dhyan ni lgra he sb kuch khatam ho gaya he life se meko smjh ni ara he ki ma kya kru anxiety bhi hoti he past ki bajah se, kuch ni bacha he mere pass i need help

Physical Health

Me ek toxic relationship me thi .. I think wo relationship sirf meri taraf se hi tha kyuki  me hi effort lgati thi communication ko continue krne ke liye even mujhe days me replies aane lge..mene usse clear kr diya sb and hr jhag se remove kr diya and kuch dino baad kl raat uski snap pe request aayi hai ..me hmesha usse dobara contact me aa jati hu or wo wesa hi rehta hai bilkul change ni ata ..lekin uske single msg se bhi mujhe bhot khushi milti hai ..wo hmesha excuse bna deta hai ki kis wjah se wo aise behave krta hai lekin mujhe sb jhut lgta hai kyuki uske words uske actions se match nhi hote...me kyaa kru ?

3am Thoughts

Iskaaa kya ilaaj h kai bar itna akela feel hota h ki esa hota h mano ek dost ho ya koi to ho mtlb yar itna acha kuch dekh kr relate kiss se kruu. Koi dost to ho jo sch m mera ho. Mujhe malum self love is best pr kai bar koi to chahiye... Aur vo nhi bn rhe dost lock down h. Aur social media pr alg hi seen h.. Mtlb 2,3 ya hafta baat krega bas koi.. Vo bhi agr ldki bol de ki m esi nhi hu jisse tum esi vesi bate kro, flirting kro tb vo ek adha dost bhi chla jayega aur ldkian to mil hi ni rhi jese.... #Loneliness #alone 

Frustration

Literally I have no one to talk

Aur logo ko lagta hai iske kitne dost hai

Shi m yrr 🥲

Hello 
kya bolu? 
Kuch bhi bol! Sach me?
nhi yaar ,nhi bol skta. Koi mera jaisa hoga kya?
Ho skta he log toh sab same hi hote he,
Ye toh me keh rha hu lekin log kya kahenge,
Logon ko kehene do kuch bhi.
Agar kehene denge toh kya hi hoga.
Isliye likh rha hu kuch bhi, 
Keh rha hu khudse, dekh lete karke ye experiment, jaise YouTube pe social experiment hote he vaise,
thik he padh tumne padh liya?
Toh kya lagate he ? 
Koi hoga bhoo tiya , "see ech u" nhi likh skta.
Yhi khatam krta hu.
Ye jo tune padha he ye mere dimaag ki chalte hue vichar h. 




hello dear 
 sup! 
iss duniya ki mehfil mein chor bhot aane lage hai jha dekho vha koi nah koi kuch nah kuch churata hi rehta hai , kbhi kisi ki neend ,kbhi kisi ka dil kabhi kisi ki zaruratein, kbhi kisi ki khushi , kbhi kisi ka gum, kbhi kisi ki koi keemti cheez , aakhir kab voh samaye aayega jab inn choron ko smjh aayega ki jis cheez par yeah apna adhikar jatate hai aasl mein yeah unki hai hi nahi . Yeah jante hue bhi ki isse kisi ko dard hoga, kisi ki zindagi kharab ho skti hai , kisi  ki jeene ki umeed khatam ho skti hai fir bhi voh yeah dhorate rhete hai nah jane kya sukoon milta hai inhe.......

har shaks ki zindagi ek taufa hai
aae bande iss taufe ko nah chura
yeah jo haal-ae-dil hai unn sabhi shaksiyaton ka 
uss dil ke haal ko uun nah dukha 

Other

Bhai tum Single - Child jee kaise lete ho? 

I was never alone in my life.. Hum 3 bhai behen hai.. Aur humesha koi na koi hota hi tha ghr pr - Timepass k liye.. 

Yaar yeh phli baar h jab m akela ghr pr hun with parents.. Esa nhi h kabhi akela nhi rha.. College k liye m bahar hi rhta hun, abhi ghr hun After Graduation... Lekin bhaii sahab, tum Single-Child kaise jeete ho yaar? Mtlb Mummy - Papa se kya bolo? Thodi baat ho jaaye, firr toh mujhe ajeeb lgne lgta hai khaali baithe baithe.. Unki tabiyat bhi thk nhi rhti toh darr bhi lgta hai, bht zyada. I'm soo scared na honestly. I cant even express. 

Okay Lets come back to topic, ki bhai batao yaar..Mera toh mann hi nhi lgta ghr m.. Mtlb timepass hona toh chahiye koi, faltu ki baato k kiye, ladne ke liye, kisi ki udane k liye.. Huhh.. 


Just writing my feelings

Life aise kyu hai yrr.... Logo ko virasat mai khandan se property ya paise milte hai but muje... anxiety stress gareebe mili hai...Mtlb saalo pehle humre dada pardada apna gaav chod ke yaha aaye kamane ke liye na par sala duniya daari mai he sab gava diya... Na gaav mai kuch rakha na he yaha city mai apna kuch kar paye... Dad ke pass jab achi kamane ki job thi tab unhone bhi Aisa nhi socha ki apne baccho ke liye kuch save Karu... No I am like agar muje apna education bhi complete karna hai toh khud ke paiso pe... Yahi nahi upar se Ghar pe bhi do... Kisi bhi point pe mom dad ko aise nhi laga ki kal ko betiyon ki shaadi ke liye kuch save Karu... Loan le leke di ki shaadi karai... Ab uske Emi's mere ser pe... With minimum education and Little to no experience they expect me to earn 20k or 25k I mean wtf... Kya mere dreams nhi hai meri wishes nhi hai... Muje bhi apni studies karni hai yrr... I don't know kab kaha kya galat hua par uske baad sab sala galat he ho raha hai 😭😢😢

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