Before she knew that I was sexually abused by my father, my mother always thought I was a disrespectful child until the age of 16. She always said would have bad luck because I disrespected her.
I’m twenty-seven, and don’t really believe in God nor his Commandments especially “honor thy mother thy father.” This is because I feel like my parents disrespected me one and that my father abused me and my mother telling me things that made me feel terrible about myself but in retrospect he’s only said those things because she thought I was disrespectful.
However I still believe that thought haunts me lot and that is. I will have bad luck for the rest of my life because I feel like I do have bad luck and I always get angry at my mom and we fight a lot I do love her, but Im just hurt.
Every time I’m angry I’d blame her for a lot of things are not her fault also because she said those things and it’s affected me. And I feel guilty all the time.
So is it a self-fulfilling prophecy that I have bad luck or is it true that because of disrespecting my mother I have bad luck?
It’s normal even my mother say like that, doesn’t mean you’ve bad luck, see you need to change this habbit don’t shout at her talk to her nicely when you feel like exhausted just be alone, even i was having anger issue that i hit my mom 🙂 later when she didn’t talked to me i went nd ask her kiya hua she said tujhe yaad nhi, to be honest i didn’t remember… Thats how anger works, btw srry to hear about abused, btw can i know what abused you faced…
You have bad luck because you think that’s the only thing you have when it comes to luck. It might sound philosophical but trust me change your mindset and see how things work in your favour.
