Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

As if i can go back and reassess why i am marrying this person whom I met once , and he said over message that he want to marry , from no where.As he has everything in his house and in life only missing is me ,as what he used to say . And me the naive one never ever been in any short of relationship, could like to consider him and give a try how much bad it can happen, just that i challenge myself.i fall from him day by day and he used to keep me unseen for a day or week, i don’t know we are in relationship or not when i used to come back in the city he never put up any effort to meet. And this way 1.5yr passed, i change my city and choose his place to work , and married him within month after joining , as he say to told my parents and marriage everything about us and we are from different cast, so there is repercussions so in hurry he convinced me to marry as after marriage or if it take longer having baby will change there midset. And i being in marriage 2.5yr and in my last month of pregnancy nothing change from my parents side, i even didn’t saw them since then , they just leave in 10-15km away from me. And now the cause why i am reassessing is i have trust issue with him, he make up stories, about each and everything, he always stuck with his phone, never ever leave his phone , even if have to charge , get charge in different room , i even don’t know the password, but some how i mange to see his social media chat with different different girl, but at the same time older chats are deleted, these girls are married having children, and he always used to say he sleep early once he slept its difficult to wake him up but now due to my insomnia i saw him over is phone typing or chating in odd hours , and as i asked him, he secure his guard high evertime, and put blame on me, that he can’t have friend, he only talk to peoples if ever its necessary and its only related to work and its all because of me because i keep on questioning him. And how loyal he his he come back direct home after office never ever go or hang with friends, and as per record he said to me he never have friends and a good child always. He used to have gf in his college and he didn’t told me anything about it and there is some seen about it, means having involvement of police and all (as he said later on that police man was her relative) i still don’t know the whole story, as they go together outside country for higher study so i think there must be something strong between them and it was good 5-6yr relationship, seeing his past and now what he is doing write now, i am in guilt now and can’t figure out my future or there is what other hidden truth to be unfold.