Arrgghh my mom doesn't allows me to hangout with my friends like she goes everywhere. She thinks I am a small kid but no I am legit 16. Like whyyy. I hate her for this. My friends are gonna hate him if I cancel the plan. How should I make my mother? She is strongly against it

But atleast she should allow. I am not trying to go alone. I am saying that she will come with me then also😭

Oops. That's kinda more complicated. 😂

I am sorry I was just very angry at that moment 

Maybe but she can also come with me. Like she definitely is coming with me but not allowing for that also

Oh my god. That's really sad. Pray for you 🤞

Friends

I just woke up. I have been asleep for a long time. 

3am Thoughts

We were a family of 5 and my dad was a raging alcoholic. We three kids have been hit when he’s angry, insulted or shouted at which had embarrassed us a lot of times in front of our relatives of friends. He didn’t do such things when he hadn’t consumed alcohol, let me tell that on the other hand he was the most loving dad. He gave us whatever we wanted, provided good school, clothing everything. But tht also came with a cost, he provided us by loaning money. We knew that. I have seen him drinking and then hitting mom, mom still used to just be fine the other day and not hate him at all. She didn’t ever give up, she still served him food, also asked for money to loan from relatives, I know that’s only for us. She knew if she gave up, she will have to leave him and be with us and no where to go. 
So we kept on going, unless my dad passed away few years back. 
We 4 are doing fine now, but what haunts are the memories and the effect of a person on us. Me and my sister naturally tend to loud, I can’t take anyone doing even one thing wrong to me or my family, I cry just too many times..even if it’s a small situation or minor issue. My mom on the other hand is still very forgiving and never blames her husband for the mental trauma  that has costed us. My sister went through a lot more than me. I have just learnt with time to forgive but I can’t forget. I also had temper issues later because as we grew, we realised that what my dad did was physical abuse, he tormented my mom and now that I think, I feel why didn’t I do anything to stop that. Whatever happened in front of our eye was so normal for us and we didn’t ever stop it. We were really small school going kids who thought it was fine dad hitting mom or shouting at her. 
This has made me very defensive in life. Because if this nature not many friends liked to be around me during college days, I only kept 1-2 friends, I couldn’t be in a group. I picked up having attitude and giving back to people which was only and only repelling people from me. 
I now understand that it’s too late to get the people back in my life but the question is if only someone could really help and understand me, it would’ve been better. 

Family

Im stuck in uncertainity, what should i do?

I don't know how to start or don't know how this actually works. But I desparately just want to talk to someone and hope that they'd just listen without saying anything back. I can't exactly put into words what I feel but there's just a lot of things going on. Some of those things don't even relate to me but yet I get emotionally attached to it. 
I just miss my old self who could talk to any random person and just be friendly without having thoughts regarding them being someone whom I can't trust or who would betray me.
I used to never worry about people leaving because I had come to terms with people leaving but I met a person and I can't really blame that person for this but somehow it has changed me. Now as I lose so many people in my life I don't know how to hold on and have become a person that I'd never hang out with. I just want to feel like myself again and just want to be my old self. I can't seem to let go off the fear of losing people now that I lose even more people. Now I am feared to talk to anyone new or to make new friends as I don't know whether they might like me or not. I have been so conscious about people liking me or not now that I don't even like getting out of the room. I prefer staying in and when I go out if any person stares I am scared to make eye contact and check myself if there's anything wrong with me. I blame myself for things that I am not even a part of. I think of myself as a bad person when I am around a group of people with whom to get along I bent myself so much that I don't even know who am I with them. How do people really hold on with their personality? Because I just flow and make that people feel so easy with me without losing myself at first but now I just flow in so much that I take the shape that they decide for me and now what I am. I really found a person who'd listen to me be there for me but then realizing how harmful I have become I don't really want to put the person through something that I know can destroy. Soon I realised that I got diagnosed with PCOS and I thought yes this might be the cause behind how I am feeling. But in the end it's really tough to just feel loneliness and be scared of it, when I was a person for whom loneliness didn't matter and somehow I just hope to get back to being who I was or maybe a stronger version of who I was. Or I just grow out of this phase and just learn to be myself even if there are fake and selfish people around me. Or by the least be able to make sense on my own without having to depend on anyone to keep myself safe from people who hurt me. 

Peer Pressure

"Be kind, for everyone is fighting a hard battle.
And if you really wanna see what people are, all you have to do is
LOOK."
Watched this really amazing movie called "wonder" and I'm really overwhelmed by it...


Movies

I feeel ugly and very insecure about my body and my looks

Body image

Write your crush name.
1.What you love about her.
2.Have you confess?How is it?
3.If you have any regrets for her.
4.Leave a letter for her.
     -Your first initial


Come bestie.Im helping you to ease your min a bit.

I'm stuck I can't sleep my mind is racing with thoughts that i don't have any control of my mind is having a competition with me

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