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Coming Out

I think I'm emotionally not available. I don't think I have ever genuinely loved anyone. However I tend to be more interested in guys who are not available and drawn to them and if they guy tries to talking to things to more serious relationship. My feelings for the person will slowly go away or I find myself searching for flaws, habits that I don't tolerate. 
I have not been in a serious relationship for almost 9 years now and I always wanted to be in a relationship. I think I'm ready to commit but then it doesn't reflect my choices. I am just lying to myself?
Then after few years, I kind of understood that I knew in the back of my conscious that this person will not be in a relationship with me and I think that's why I chose them rather than them choosing me. I don't know if this makes sense and when these guys leave or if i eventually gets fed I don't even feel sad I just move on. 
But now I'm talking to a person whom i have liked for awhile and I don't want my personal fucked up mind to ruin it. I don't know what to do or I am just fooling myself?
Any help? suggestions
 

Mental Health

Hai.. I am in dilema.. I have lots of work stress
I am in love with a guy who is of other religion. Now we are thinking of having some sort of physical relationship without the though of wedding. I know he doesn't love me he loves only my body. 
I know I am wrong despite that I am not able to take him off my head. I need help what do I do. If we move forward it will be very difficult for me to move on in life

Anxiety

दुर्गम वनों और ऊँचे पर्वतों को जीतते हुए
जब तुम अंतिम ऊँचाई को भी जीत लोगे— 

जब तुम्हें लगेगा कि कोई अंतर नहीं बचा
तुममें और उन पत्थरों की कठोरता में
जिन्हें तुमने जीता है— 

जब तुम अपने मस्तक पर बर्फ़ का पहला तूफ़ान झेलोगे
और काँपोगे नहीं— 

तब तुम पाओगे कि कोई फ़र्क़ नहीं
सब कुछ जीत लेने में
और अंत तक हिम्मत न हारने में।

3am Thoughts

So theres this concert happening this week that i’ve been raving about for months… me and my sister just partnered up to convince my parents to buy the tickets. I promised all my friends id go and i had wanted to go so badly, my dad is traveling out of that country and cant drop me off. My parents are overly protective and don’t let me do much, like public transport and all, so i don’t have a ride there. My sis has a ride with her friends and cant take me. Ive tried everything to give my parents an option they would accept but they don’t seem to care, i offered going with my friend and her brother would drive us but because her brother is only 19 they don’t trust him driving me and wont allow it. I think they’re being dramatic but i cant really do much, it’s just embarrassing atp everyone else’s parents are as overprotective as mine and my parents make me feel so guilty for everything i do. I just never want to disappoint them. They offered me going with my family friend and her driver and going into the inner part of the concert where they think it is safer, but i genuinely want to go to the concert to be with my friend not with my family friend and her cousins who i barely know. I don’t even know what to do the concert is in like a few days and they make me not want to go anymore. Even my sis began to argue how she thinks its not for my age and that she doesn’t trust me going to a party with my type of friends as they will go wild. She trashed my friends in front of my family and made me seem so irresponsible, i wanna go so badly but the guilt is killing me. They want to talk to my friends brother and get some comfort. They are willing to go to such lengths and even considered booking a hotel in that city and staying there and joining the uber with us. They are so dramatic but i cant hate them or anything… my dad also found out that if ur under a certain age you need to be with an adult and i don’t have an adult with me but me and my friends were planning to ask some adult there to pretend to be with us or go in with my friends brother but he’s not 21 and my dad thinks they will actually check I.D but i know they probably wont as we look older than what we are. I don’t even know anymore, someone help please.

Family

I've been working night shift and it's been making me feel super stressed and anxious. I'm finally moving to a morning shift role,but I've had to work on weekends and miss out on social events,normally I'm okay with my partner doing things without me, I'm not super clingy. But we both got invited to a party and I can't go cause it's my last week of working night shift, I felt super depo about it cause I've just been feeling like life's passing me by, my partner saw I was sad and left to go to the party anyway. I'm not sure how I feel,I'm in two minds, on one hand I want him to have fun with his friends but on the other hand it would have been nice to not have been alone the whole Saturday evening...Am I being selfish for feeling a little mad at him?

FOMO

Me with the guy I like whose getting engaged

He took me out the other night (as friends) and the whole time he was like *staring* at me - I could see him out the corner of my eye…
We’re both singers and he started singing and his voice literally was the sexiest thing I’ve ever heard.
I know nothing will come of this but needed to indulge my fantasies lol

Do you think they are avoiding me because they are saying it's not worth to come for 1 day to meet them are they avoiding or are they really not interested in meeting? Since I live a bit far from the place the other people live.

Overthinking

It's always a heartbreak when someone is very close to you and you see them falling apart. So basically we were very close friends she always supported me and so did I. We often text each other mostly everyday. We had a great bonding. Time flies and soon she was introduced to a boy by someone who had a crush on her, she did tell me about him and said she's not into relationships. But gradually they started to talk everyday and she was giving me less time. I ignored it and always made an attempt to talk to her but everytime we text she always talks about the other guy.soon the Texts from her stopped and i feel I've been replaced by the other guy. This feeling hits me harder everytime I think about her.

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