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I feel pressured. I just entered class 12th and I have opted for science as my stream. In class 11th, because of online classes, I could not study properly. Hell, I don't even know a word taught in class 11. I tried studying on my own, but could not score passing marks. So, I gave up studying and copied answers from Google. I left my tuition and everything. Towards the end, I was scared if I would fail. Fortunately, I did not. 

But then, I joined a different tuition centre. I hate physics with all my heart and not because of the subject, but because of my school teacher. He is kind of a pervert and children still don't report him or anything, fearing that our principal would take their side (which she will) and then he would fail us. This is our last year and looking at the things nowadays, it feels like my future kind of depends if he decides to pass me or not.

Anyway, the teacher at the tuition centre is very good and patient. He knows that many of us didn't do well in our 11th and hence, would explain us accordingly. The problem is my Chemistry teacher in the institution. He, you know, kind of... I don't know how to put it into words... he kinda makes me feel demotivated. Like, while teaching, he asks us questions related to 11th and he knows that I don't know a word. Yet he asks me questions and when I answer it with an 'I don't know, his response feels like he is mocking me. Yes, he is very good at teaching us, but sometimes... you know when he talks about entrance exams and all, he puts it like all of the students are going for competitive exams. I'm not. If you know my posts, you might know of my plan of studying in Korea.

In his class, I feel hopeless. Yes, I understand it all. But when I come home, I cry. A lot. And it's been only 2 classes. I feel like I won't even live at the end of the year. Whenever he talks about our study plans and all, I feel like I'm surrounded by really intelligent people. Even at school. 

I'm not that good of a student, just an average student with a dream of having a career. But after those classes, I feel like I'm gonna give up soon. I don't cut myself or anything, cause I know that my skin isn't paper to be cut. But it hurts.

I can't tell anyone cause it feels like I'm just putting my burden upon others. I cry after every class, yes they are online, but I can't help it. I can't tell my sister cause she is not good with advice. Instead of making me feel alright, she shouts at me. And if I say that I'm not okay with her response, she tells me to suck it up. 

I can't tell my Maa cause she has many problems. Like she shares them with me cause both of us know about my sister and her ways of soothing a person. My sister can talk good with anyone who is not either one of us. Believe me, I've seen.

I don't tell either of my best friends cause I have shared about many things and I don't wanna feel like a burden. I know that as best friends, we can and should share anything and everything, but sometimes it feels like I should tell them everything as they would think that I have too many problems and then leave me. 

I'm ranting out here cause I have nowhere to go. I can't cry until everyone's asleep cause then they'll just judge me for having 'petty' issues like this. But honestly, when I do cry, nobody knows and I make sure of that.

Plus my teachers at school think that we are robots and give us homework like we don't other subjects and anything to study. They end the classes by saying that we should take care of ourselves and stuff like that and then dump like 10-20 page assignments that have to be submitted that very day and also want us to answer the questions that are not even mentioned in the book or are from another chapter. They just assume that we are students of the Science stream so all of us would have the brains of Einstein. Well, I don't! I sometimes curse my Physics teacher that may he die by choking on the palm-thick physics book or may that book fall on him and kill him. 

Like, why are we even supposed to respect people? Just because they were born before us? Just because of that? Or because they are a teacher? Well, what if an elderly teacher rapes someone. Nobody would go like, Sir/Ma'am, would you like tea or coffee before we discuss your case? Hell, they will!

I'm just tired. I don't sleep enough. I eat once a day. I sleep for like 3-4 hours every day. My house is surrounded by babies. Sometimes I just want to be one. I could just scream my lungs out and nobody would judge me. Like what if babies scream because of their past lives' frustration. Like they're given some time to just shout and shout.

It's just me ranting here because I can't cry or talk to anyone in person. It hurts me physically each day. But I think I can take it. I still have the dream of me sitting with my cats in the backyard while some cakes and stuff is baking, to be completed.

I think that we are always made to think that our careers are our dreams. I don't like to think like that. I think that how we want a peaceful day in our old age should be our dream. That we should be made to live to achieve that. Careers are you 20's and 30's and like that. Dreams should be how to want your last days to be.

And with that, I'm finishing my rant. Not my problem if you thought this was annoying.
Mochi💚

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I just wanted to be productive in my high school life but now im getting distracted by anything.  Its easy to distract me can someone please please find me a real practical solution to the 

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Hii
I have my exam Tomorrow i am trying to study i hv done the topics before but i find it difficult to grasp today.
I can't understand what m reading my mind is just blank the words feel like they are flying across me nd i am just watching them fly.
It's like when a mosquito buzzes around u,
U are irritated but u just let it pass coz u r not able to grasp the situation.

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