Anyone else constantly battle with OCD and intrusive thoughts ? I could use someone to talk to 

yeah it’s really exhausting for me tbh! I don’t know how you feel about it? Let me know !

It’s the worst I’m done dealing with it I can’t take it anymore 

Anxiety

I want to run away from all the battles I'm yet to win. 
I want to run away from all the people without whom i can't live.
I want to make my life more miserable just so i can realise how good it is now.



3am Thoughts

Lmao why can't my family road trip ever begin without atleast 3 screaming matches

Family

I JUST WANNA DISAPPEAR!!!!!!!!

Depression

I read this one earlier today,and felt this one is must share 
So here’s my first post for you guys
Vulnerability
People see it as a weakness, people are scared to get scars. I believe it is a strength.
When i went on stage for the first time i felt it very strongly, i was scared. People judged me.
When i faced the camera for the first time i felt vulnerable that the world will see how bad i am.
And they did and made fun.
When i dated for the first time i shared whats in my heart and got walked over. I felt deeply hurt and used.
Whenever i did something new i felt very vulnerable and scared but only in vulnerability there is growth. I choose it every time.
I choose to dance my heart out and let people laugh than sit in a corner, i choose to speak up on stage and get judged than avoid it, i choose to say whats in my heart and get walked over than hide what i truly feel.
The weak are scared of the scars and they have none, scars are what define the strong.

Self Harm

I am a muddy stream. Slowly flowing along with the topography. I do not feel clean or fluid, nor do I feel dry, desolate, or empty. Steadily forcing myself downward through the slope of life, I find myself remembering a time when I was a pure, swift, and powerful river. Carving through the terrain without a care, and sprawling with life. Crashing into everything in my path and pushing it all down into my depths. Now all I can do is try to pinpoint the moment the dirt and rock overtook my flow, causing me to be violently swallowed. I continue to quietly, slowly and painfully drag myself through the mud and twigs hoping to become what I once was. Maybe I will be pulled into the clouds and retain my form elsewhere. Maybe I will continue to dry up here. Maybe something else will come along and change my circumstances, be it nihilistic, or optimistic. Only time will tell. I can only flow silently in the present. The paths I can vaguely see in front of me are either dry, or continue to be muddy and filled with sludge. I feel I can only flow along in the stagnant present.

no energy or incentive to do anything 

Adulting

Ready to end it all.

Life

Life lately has been tough I can cry any moment I am so filled with pain and vulnerability it's just too much these days I get frustrated and quickly dejected to the peak I have no one to be with no friends everybody left me at the same time my boyfriend my friends and ik they were not staying forever anyways it was my believe they will my boyfriend loved me head over heels and now he treats me no less than a stranger I question myself everyday why am I facing all of this why don't I have people in my life why don't people stay with me why do they leave why don't I get loved why am I problematic I just. Want to be happy for rea land ik some of yall will tell me self love enjoy your company but I am 19 in this age atleast i will like company Idk am just so done 

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