any tamil speaking mbbs student or graduate. i am doing my 3rd yr mbbs. wish to contact

ilan

I'm a mbbs student from tamilnadu ..if its not too late you can ask me 

Hi madam mbbs lam illa.enkitta pesuvengala

Frustration

I have seperation anxiety. 🙂

Relationships

I am just sliding between two things
Either feeling numb or feeling anxious 
I want to live a life 😞😔

3am Thoughts

Any lonely soul online?

I am not feeling good
Tensed about my career. Parents are pressurising me for marriage
Am I the only person?

Career

Hey I'm Nancy ❤✨today I'm so happy and you 

Loss

Guilty! For procrastinating my move abroad. I have pushed submitting my documents as a professional for months. I know once I do it, I will be able to get a job and move out immediately which I really want to, but, I have no motivation to do the paperwork. I got to finishing 80% of the work and stuck at the last 20%
Looking for someone who will sit through with me on a zoom meeting or something and push me to finish the work which should take me max half an hour or one. 
I guess m depressed cause I know my family doesnt celebrate my success and always try to pull me down. I am tired of being successful and treated like dirt in the past. I have no motivation to do well cause at the end of it, I still have no one to love or care for me. 

Productivity

Now a days i jst can't be alone 
Its like being alone makes me anxious 
I get irritated very quickly now a days 
Don't know what is happening with me 


Anxiety

In April I broke up with my girlfriend because I was too scared to admit that I'm having suicidal thoughts. Because I promised her at the begging of our relationship that I will not kill myself, I decided that when I broke up with I would be free to end my life. She was the only reason why I was fighting with my demons. Unfortunately I survived my sucide attempt and I started feeling even worse because I knew that I fucked up and that I hurted her because I was a fucking egoist. 

After a few weeks I finally talked about this with my best friend. I asked her if she knows how my ex is doing. I asked her if they are in touch because I was worried about her. She LIED to me and told me that they don't really text. Maybe one text per week. Well. I believed her. She was always telling me that she all her friendships trough internet weren't really working because she's not that type to text a lot. Well, I believed her. Event tho I was hurt because she was texting me only when she wanted to meet up with me. 

After a few weeks I found out the truth. They're were texting almost 24/7 and my ex was planning on visiting her for few days. 

I was so angry that I texted my friend and told her how I'm feeling about this. She was again lying to me.  She was trying to make me feel bad because I was feeling betrayed. I told her that this is the end of our friendship. She wasn't even trying. 

At that time I felt like everything is falling apart. I lost my two most important people in life. 

At the end of June I texted my ex to explain everything (I wanted to write a letter for her on the day where we started dating). But I found out that she was visiting my ex bff that day. So I texted her with this letter. I told her the truth. I did this because I wanted to kill myself. She said that she understands, that she wants to help me. She told me that she loves me and she want to try again. 

After that we stopped texting. But on a group chat where I was, my ex, my ex bff and a few other people the two of them were 24/7 trying to make me feel even worse. I was crying every day and every night because I was so tired of this. 

A few days ago my ex bff visited my ex gf. They were posting photos together. Then I found out that they're together. 

Since that day I started overeating, crying most of my time and not being able to do anything. Last Saturday I tried to kms again. It's Wednesday and I'm slowly losing myself. I just can't. I just want this pain to stop. I'm alone. I don't have anyone. I'm so scared. I want to end my life but I'm so fucking scared . 

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