broken guy here. May be you’re looking for a girl!!
hey broken guy. do uh wanna talk with someone
haha. preferebly a girl maybe who can show me my mistakes from other side ;)
i can only help if uh tell me the story.
In brief, I was with a girl for close to 3 years. She got with me right immediately after her breakup. Our start was like instant hit and most romantic scenarios imaginable. But during the 3 years, she left me at least 2-3 times and the pattern was always the same, her going back to the ex. I kept on thinking maybe I didn’t love her enough. She sometimes was head over heels for me and some days saying she never ever loved me. Finally she called it quits. The reason she gave was that she never loved me that way and also maybe I should’ve shown more concrete steps towards her. In her defense, she loved,cherished, took care of me when I needed the most. I kept on loving her for these qualities and considering her as my family but she insisted if I would’ve shown more concrete steps, it all would’ve worked. Also she also had a traumatic past, she really did a lot and unfortunately there are so many things I still have holed up inside me which I keep on feeling for her. I’ve written stories and published but the love for her is still inside me. Still a huge lot holed up inside.
to be clear i may not write in a flow but will tell uh whatever I feel and it might be painful and harsh for uh.
when uh guys came into the relation that was a wrong decision by the girl didn’t had any time to come out from her own breakup and just got in touch with uh to heal herself. the past can’t be changed but their are so many redflags in the message uh have told me.
tbh uh were a bandaid to her pain and whenever the wound was better she ripped off the bandaid and went back to her ex and came back to uh whenever was in pain.
basically, the girl is not brave enough to deal with her emotions may be bcz of her traumas and uh are just being a part of that thing.
she cared for uh and uh did the same… and tbh everyone do stuff for people they are in contact with.
i would say rather than being hard of urself and making thoughts if uh did that then the relation would have stayed etc etc but in reality, if it’s meant to be, nothing can be done.
i known to heal and moving on is really tough but we have to move on for ourselves. just keep trying every day a lit bit and in the end, all will be good.
and yes please talk to me whatever uh feel so. I would love to help someone like me.
You know what you said is something I always knew and found correct. As I mentioned about her past(nothing to do with me btw), I always felt the responsibility to give her everything which was rightfully taken from her earlier. We were close friends first and I could see the truth & pain in her eyes when she shared her side with me. I felt the pain and promised myself later that I’ll always be there for her no matter what. I thought she would see love from that perspective as well but it seems as you correctly mentioned that maybe I was just a simple quick fix. I genuinely saw love for me in her eyes lots of time. She went above and beyond just for me. And being a person who rarely lets people in, I felt she is my family now. I never imagined myself cheating or leaving her but possibly was not great in sharing my feeling clearly at all times. I always thought she would just read me without me saying. I guess it might not be the right way of looking at things. I would love to know what you went through as well.
i guess uh will understand this quote well that when we try fixing others we started losing ourselves or should I say we are creating pain for ourselves.
just be in contact with her, no matter how tough it is
if uh ever feel low and want to talk just ping me once
we can be friends hopefully
if uh want to talk more uh can tell me ur id on other social media
email… ummm oksay done
hiiii
