Pholosho @blessing
And here’s the truth. I’ve been broken for so long. And I get attached way to fast. I’m lost and l’m scared. I’m scared of everything. The littlest things scare the hell out of me. I’m scared of being happy. Or smiling. Or putting myself out there again. Because every time I do I end up getting hurt. And I have no one.I feel so alone. And thank no one cares. I’m scared to live but 'm scared to die. I hurt every day. Ever when I seem like I don’t. I do, I cry to much. And I push people away cause I think that’s what I need. I don’t know what’s good for me. And I don’t want to. I don’t want to have to be the Boy who’s easy or dumb. Or worthless.try soooo hard to be enough and some how I never am.I open up to much. To the point where now I don’t ever open up. I lock myself in my room and I hope that someone out there is thinking about me. Even though know no one is. I see all my flaws and think maybe girls see them too. I always go for the girls I know are going to hurt me. And that hurts me to say. I’m always a forgiving person. And I always let people in and open my heart for them to just break it. I am always there when no one is ever there for me. And I never think about myself. Only everyone else. And when I do think about myself I’m selfish. So l’m scared. & I’m am absolutely terrified.
