[an update no one asked for]
I finished the task that made me feel so anxious and overwhelmed. I feel happy and productive :) ~

Productivity

I feel like running away sometimes but then I realise it’s me in trying to run from and I can’t run from myself. 

Confusion

It starts with you..

3am Thoughts

Everything is a mess, my career, my famiy, my friendship and my situationship

currently, it feels like you are the finish line. 
i’m running. i’m almost there. but everytime i get closer, you move further away from me. i don’t have that much energy to keep running. i used to. but it’s been drained out of me. i keep running but people keep overtaking me. i was at the first. now i’m the third.
and you know, in this race, it’s not about “giving your best”, it’s about winning. 
and i don’t even know if i want to win anymore. i’m too tired. i need rest. or maybe i don’t.

Other

It wasn’t just a characters scream - it showed  losing, deprivation and mourning.

I am feeling so alone and depressed. I do have anxiety and I panic alot due to things going in my life. I can't share to my feelings with my parents or friends or boyfriend.

Depression

I am feeling guilty of seeking attention. I don't know why I do that but I feel guilty after that. I try to make my mind aware of not doing anything to grab attention for example playing victim card or use of misery and sometimes acting weak/ dizzy or helpless. Sometimes I think I am mentally sick. Do You think I should seek  psychiatrist's help to get rid of this problem? 

I'm 14 y/o soon gonna be 15 and feeling like missing out everything due to my awful communication skills. Idk I was always so lonely and had no friends to talk to but lately due to the coronavirus, I'm just sad the whole time. I'm trying to feel happier through watching my fav series which is Skam, but it just makes me lonelier. I don't know what to do anymore and am so scared of the future and get so stressed about it even tho I'm so young. 
I don't know how to explain this, but I'm kinda imagining another "me" in my mind, which has everything i dont, friends, a family which has time and a bunch of talents. I daydream about the happier "me" in my mind the whole time and I honestly don't know if I'm just getting absolutely crazy due to this lonelieness. 

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