alright, so here is my thing which I am going through. There might be someone with the same feeling or situation. It would be very long story so get your drinks and popcorn
So, I have a friend who is very close to me at least from my side. We have been friends since 3+ years. Did university together and studied the same course. So basically, everything was all good when we were in university. Then came a 8 months break between us. then finally we met and everything was same between us. we shared everything what happened in those months and shared the same friendship we had.
Interesting twist was that I had never drank alcohol in my life. I had this fascinating thought that why not try vodka with him for the first time. I am all excited. mind you he has been drinking as long as i remember. So nothing new for him. Well, we drank at his home. And the next thing which is obvious is we made out. Well, that was a big shock for me because i never saw him in that way ever before neither he saw me like that. Well… days passed. But we never talked as such about it. Then one fine day, he was drunk on a Saturday night i guess and he called me. I live with my family and share a room so obviously couldn’t receive the call. the next day he called me again saying he feels stupid now to call me when drunk. I said its all good. but now whenever he gets drunk he calls and basically we are sexting.
Once we met and we kissed. it was my first ever kiss that i loved. It was not just the kiss but the moment we shared. Well, as of now our relation is complicated . Obviously we are not just friends nor in a bf/gf relationship. I tried to meet him but i know he is busy with his life since he is an international student and its imp for him to work. he always confess how he love the make out that day or the kiss but never when he is sober. I am confused now where I stand in his life. either I am important to him or not. either should I talk him normally or just do not talk him at all. his friendship is important for me more than what we have now. Also it is hard for me not to text him because he is the only friend i have whom i share my entire life with. At times, i struggle and feel helpless.
Just a confused 23 year old who has just started to experience all romantic stuff in her life 😅😅.
Lol, i relate a lot, it was not that similar but were friends, and I know my issues so I’m always confusing attention with love, but I swear that I never saw him like that, one night we were at a party and he kissed me, we were both kind of drunk, and he said he liked me, then the next day everything was AWKWARD, we act like that never happened, the next few weeks we just be normal and randomly kissed, it took us months to really be open about what we wanted and how we felt, a lot of drama could have been avoid if we would just be honest, my advice is for you to think about what you want from him, once you have that sorted out, then you need to ask him to do the same, you need to express to him how important it’s to be 100% honest, so when you both express that nothing keeps hide, it might be difficult but it’s worst to be faking and not knowing where you stand. I hope this helps, also I’m from Mexico so I’m sorry if my english it’s not so good. Be brave and good luck
