
after knowing that i m single again, people are like bees and i m honey. it is frustrating. coz how many times u say No. how many times u have to kick their butts for asking physical favors.  i dont know yaar. there is no depth in people and just living for their libido. irritated

i m single right now, but i dont want any kind of relationship. and people around me are thinking that i m open to have a FWB relationship. its so ridiculous , why should i entertain.. no is a no. but persistently. i blocked then other account, another number, wtf

also its like, when the person get to know u r single , why all vulgar stuff is the only thing u think off. there are 100s of things to talk miss/dude. stop objectifying people

I totally get how it feels🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ Why can't people understand that we avail, we don't want this

Frustration

I have very few friends but they are really close to me. When I joined college it took me sometime to make friends cuz I am a little shy and hesitant . I can really get along with someone if they approach me first and I even know that won't workm it's just that I need time to open up. In college also I didn't have a very big group but in lockdown I realized that grp is really not made for eachother ...we know each other for not more that a year. Luckily I am close to one of them and we really get along but she has diff career path and won't be together next yr . I was looking forward to making more friends and improving myself in the second year but due to the lockdown all my plans are gone in vain. A few friends I made in college more like acquaintance have lost touch. I feel really lonely at times but can't do anything due to the lockdown. 

Friends

i binged again

Binge Eating

I am currently pursuing my masters in California USA . My bf was also here with me he is a year senior to me so he graduate before me , he got job offer in New York so he went there it’s been a year now. While I was staying with group of people which include mine and his friends, I developed a strong feeling towards his close friend. He also confessed his feelings to me . For now I’m totally ignoring this but I can’t do it for long time.

Relationships

I Really need some alone time but I can't. I'm not ready to go to another country and I'm being pressured now by my codependent mother which is making me feel guilty, I've been masking myself all this years and months and it will just end here. I tried to tell her to just settle for a while but nah her codependent ass tell me I'm just afraid to change. Which infuriates me because she never listens to me and now I'm having anxiety every single stupid things. I'm just so Scared. God I wish my father would come with us so He can accompany my mother. I'm tired of being with her, I love my parents and all but OmayghAd. I can't anymore, I need to keep my insanity. I just need time. I'm scared bruh. My anxiety, my confidence is shit when im around her, my true self is nAH, like bruhh please I just need time and I'll be back. 


Emotional Abuse

Pareshaan ho gaya hu is dil aur dimaag ke jhagde se

Dimaag kehta hai
Usne tujhse kabhi dhang se baat nahi ki, tum dono ki kabhi mulakaat nahi hui aur ab to wo chli bhi gayi hai to bhul ja use aur apne kaam pr dhyaan de

Magar Dil ❤️ kehta hai
Koi majburi hogi yaar uski jo wo mujhse baat nahi kar paati thi ya kabhi mulakaat nahi hui. Par mujhe ummeed hai ek din aisa aayegaa jb ji bhar kar baate bhi hongi aur mulakaat ka silsila shuru hoga. To tu apna kaam kar aur mujhe uske khayaalon me rehne de.

Hope

Feeling good

Affirmations

So I have umm had actually a best friend n I started with this bcs this is abt her so I  met a guy on dating app n she started simping over him so told her m nt liking it instead of try to understand me she got  offended then few days later our mutual frnd who was her bf fr 3 days btw n she figured out that it won't work so she broke up with him bt they remain frnds n m kinda gal if any of my female frnds crush even sends me request on insta I first ask fr permission of her so likewise when this guy her bf became my frnd when she introduced me to him I asked her if she's OK with it like me being frnds with her ex. It was ok with her so that dating app guy thing happened then this guy our mutual he asked me to meet like casual catch up we went on long drive it so casual that I even forgot to mentioned it to her after few days I told her abt it n she got offended by that he  is her ex n I dint even told her that I met him she got mad over the thing that she still likes him bt whenever I used to ask her if she still likes him she always denied the fact... n now it's been 5 months she stopped talking to me.. really donno wht to do 

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