After a while our conversation started but i feel like he is hiding something to me.
Any suggestion, how to know that??

How bcz  he is so smart nd 
 can cought me anytime

Please don't do that, let him say when he is comfortable... You might lose the relationship if you include your 6th sense or a 3rd party...

Confusion

Hi 
Its been a long time I'm writting every break down of my realtionship here 
And obviously that's my part not his 
So I got some of the replies like I hurted him beyond his belief and how I came to the conclusion that he gave up hope 
So I was trying to overcome but I again came to the same stage, I moved on 
The thing is I really don't want to make any conclusions but any how these things came to my mind after seeing everything 
Ik I remain, I 
And he remains what he is 
I tried my best in my ways, maybe wrong, maybe right idk
He did his part what he feels but now I know one thing if things are falling apart and it's the time to repair it before the mess happens
He remained in his way 
He is ignoring me since February yet I didn't lost any hope and only thought of he is this way he do escape when things go wrong 
But cutting calls, removing from snapchat isn't the option but okay I took it as his anger

After few days I texted him at ig 
He replied but yet never said once that lets repair this we can't loose it , idk if my perceptions are wrong

But the worst part is always he does what he like talks good when he is in mood , gets physical when he is in the mood etc etc
So I'm in the whole process 
This was hurting me so I putted my point in front of him he replied like okay okay I got you but then what ????
He thinks I blame him , if I do so in anger can't he correct me and put his point
Now the grudges have so over powered
I think of that he wants to get worshipped everytime 
I'm sorry to say harsh words but things need repair in time when not given we end up with hatred


Relationships

Imma be honest here… I really don’t feel happy at all. I overdoes once but I don’t regret it sometimes i feel selfish for not yk. I also think that if I do it again I can accomplish it this time… I really feel like I’m worthless like I don’t like the way my body is, I feel ugly sometimes, I have eating disorder, don’t feel smart, and just mainly feel like I’m just a weak person. I’ve done  a lot of messed up stuff just because my ex left me and I still think about him, and it’s been a year and 4 months like I cry every night knowing he’s the one that messed me up. He made my life worse I told him everything about my past and there he comes f***king it up more. ITS NOT FAIR😰 it’s not fair… and now he’s happy with his new girl. 

Depression

I’m going through a rough break up. He cheated. It was my first relationship after a very nasty divorce from an abusive marriage. I’m really struggling with feeling not worthy of love and having no one that I can count on, despite being the one that always takes care of everyone else.  Even though I have proof in black and white of his infidelity, I still feel like I should give him another chance and an almost desperation to work it out.  

Breakup

quick question. 

my friend has been distant from me, but not distant from his other friends. 

is asking him "hey, did anything happen?" too intrusive? its only been like this for a day or so.

Friends

I literally tried every single thing and I still can't get over him, i still can't move on.

Frustration

Its 1.50 am and i can’t express how i feel. Is being beautiful is enough for love?? I cared him and loved him like anything. But still he left me saying i am not beautiful enough. Why this happens to me everytime.. he was the one who came nd proposed me. Now all that he says is he lots feelings . I feel so unworthy and alone. Why only bad things are happening to me no matter how much I care nd love. God i just want to go somewhere and forget everything. I don’t know i feel like i an becoming mentally ill. Feel like something is wrong but i am helpless. 😭😭

3am Thoughts

Ok so...
Over the past few months, I got really close with one of my friends. We know each other since 4th grade and have been good friends. But now he has become a really important part of my life. I guess this pretty much sums up how great our bonding is. 
We kinda had(have?) a thing and expressed our love to each other couple of times. But then both of us somewhere were unsure that the relationship might ruin our friendship maybe. So we decided not to think about so much at least for now.
He is one of those guys, who almost every other girl wants to date, just because of his personality, and also he is good at flirting lol. I think, 5-6 months ago, he started dating a girl. I was shocked and idk. Despite being so close, he didn't tell me anything about it that hurt the most. I found out through his insta bio and immediately asked him. Some of the things said by him were, "it's just an under trail gf, we met online so not a serious one. All these other chicks will keep on coming but you are my constant! I have a feeling that I might end up with you. How are you feeling right now?" I told him that I'm sad and didn't expect this, but I guess I'm happy that you found someone. The fact that I was crying in the washroom while talking all this with him. This was the first time I have ever cried because of any guy. I felt like I have lost the chance of being with him just because I was scared. I don't know but I felt like been cheated on without even being in a relationship. But guess what, they broke up in I guess a week. He was like, "It felt weird." 
A few days later he indirectly asked me out. But I was confused. After that, I started having trust issues. Even after knowing the person is telling the truth, a part of me doesn't want to believe it. He has no idea how much his 'one-week relationship with his under trail gf' affected me. I still do love him and might probably love him forever but I don't want to get into a relationship with him now. What if he goes around and starts dating someone else again? Because back then he literally said, "they will keep on coming". I don't want to get hurt again. But I also feel like I might be the happiest if I'm with him. It's just too much confusion...

Overthinking

I have a crush. And I Don't know how to describe him and my situation. 
I told my friends that he is juts eye candy, but now I want to go out with him. I told my friends I will never speak to him, but I want to talk to him now more than ever. I used to despise anyone who looked at me, but now all I want is him to look at Me. I wanted him to ask me out because I kinda get the sense that he knows I like him but now more than ever even if I want him to ask me out, he shouldn't because I am going away to college. 
I keep waiting and waiting for him to talk to me or make a move but he clearly seems like someone who has had people chase him but I am not giving that to him. So whenever I see him I want to yell at him and slap him  because it is getting annoying now. He shows up one day but goes missing for so long. Then he comes another day and disappears. What do you want from me? And what do you want from us? What do you want with yourself? 
 

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