Aaj mere jese single ldke kya kr rhe h well mein toh bas pada hua hun bed par or bht lonely feel kr rha hun 🙃🙃🙃

Lonely

Kiu sab kuch sunsaan sa hai? 
Akhir kiu mera mann pareshan sa hai? 
 Mere sabadkosh me ye akaal kaisa hai? 
Aur uspar mere mann me ye bhayanak tufaan kaisa hai? 
Mai bolna nhi bss ab sunna chahti hu, 
Bhot chal liya ab bss ek jagah rukna chahti hu, 
Kya kaha tum mujhe apna maan mujhse dard baatne aaye ho?? 
Mai tumhe sun, tumhe apne hisse ki khushiya ada karungi , kya tum bhi mere liye gam laaye ho?? 

Tum mere bolne ki pratisha me ho? 
Ya mujhse dosti karne ki iichha me ho? 
Kaha tha na mai sirf sunna chahti hu, 
Tumhare khawaab mujhe  btao mai unhe bunna chahti hu, 
Tumne kaha tum samman karte ho mera, fir ye kiu thahake bhara gumaan sa hai?aur tum  sunane  aaye ho na mujhe?phir kiu tumhare muh par ye maun sehar me lage  hadhtall sa hai?? 

Anxiety

Kisi se ek baar mann kharab hogaya firse same back to normal mai nai hoti hu and I can't fake it I put my views,  opinions loud and clear sometimes which hurts my relatives and they take it in wrong sense and say "JYADA BOLNE LAGI HAI AJ KAL "



3am Thoughts

Hello i m in relationship from past 5 years 
Hm sath m khush the sb kuch perfect type tha 
But jb hme 2 saal hue tb meri ek cousin ne mujhe blackmail kra ki jsa m bolri hu vsa ni kra to ghr pr bta dungi at that time i was 18 nd just passed my 12th so i said ok tell me 
She said call ur bf nd tell him u have brain tumor as a prank nd i did what she said atlast i said him ki operation h n all i can't talk etc etc nd my cousin didn't let me talk to him for 20 days nd she used to tell him that ya ur gf is doing great n all and now my guilt was killing me so i tell him truth after 3 years 
He is still with me loves me understands me but now he dont trust me nd jha trust ni vha respect b ni 
Mentally bht torture hua h vo is sb se but ab b pyar bht krta h to breakup ni chahta 
Bt relation ajeeb ho chuka h m kya kru khudse breakup krlu ya chije thik kse kru kse trust jitu

Relationships

ज़िंदगी

Kehne ko to aasan h ki 
Jindgi gujari ja skti h
Roti kpda Or makan se

Lekin jb aap in teeno ko pane ki kosis krte ho to na jane kitne apne paraye bn jate h Or payare apne bn jate h

Aap apne aap ko kitna smbhal ke rokhoge
Kisi na kisi reason se tut jaoge

Or life me ese boht se reason hote jo apko andr se tod dete h

Lekin pta h sbse jada dukh kb hota h

Jb galti apki nhi ho or fir bhi apka koi ek sbse pyara person apko hurt krte chla jata h

Ye jo feeling hoti h na andr se tod deti h
Aap kitni bhi kosis kr lo
Kahi na kahi kbhi na kbhi rula hi deti h

Ye jo log bate krte h na ki ldke rote nhi h 
अक्सर wo hi sbse jada drd jel chuke hote h

Jo sbke smane ye dikhawa krte h ki hum शख्त londe h 
Ek bat khud se puch kya tu shi me esa h

Jb akele pan me ghr walo se dur apne spne pure krne ke liye apna sb kuch lga dete ho

Or bhi mnjil nhi milti h
Or jo person apne akelepn me sath hota tha 
Wo apke nakami pe apko chor ke chla jata h

Tb jo drd hota h 

Us drd me aakhe bhr aati h bt 
Aavaj nhi nikalti h muh se
Ye jo dukh ye jo akelapan h 
Kahi na kahi andr hi andr khud ko kosta h 


Bt us time tum rone ke siwa kuch kr bhi nhi skte ho

Is drd ko smja bhi har kisi ke liye aasan nhi hota h

Jo log ye kehte h ki bhai muje pta h me smjta hu

To soch bhai tu to only smj rha h uspe to wo bat biti h 
Jb tuje sun ke itna bura lg rha h to 
Usko kitna bura lgega jisne ye sb feel kiya hoga

Isliye yrr
Life aasan nhi h
Boht dukh h bhai yha pe


How to explain this feeling yaar. 
It's like you want someone in your life to share everything , spend time with you, call you talk about their life and share their day like aaj pata hai kya hua .


Meri dadi ke expire hone ke baad Mera duniya se aur har cheez se moh chuut gaya hai bahaut feeka pann AA Gaya hai life mei shaadi Tak se bhi moh chuut gaya hai baas andar se suna suna ho chuka hu aur chehre pe expressions bhi khatam ho chuke Hain aankho mei baas paani aata hai Dil bhi dukhta hai lakin chehre koi expression nhi hota baas mann krta hai ki aab baas dadi kisi naa kisi roop mei aake mujhe le jaaye apne saath aab aur nhi jeena aur nhi chal paaunga aage life mei dadi ke Bina koi bhi dost nhi hai life mei lakin tanhai aur akela pann Merabahaut gehra dost bann chuka hai. Kisi se bhi Milne kaa Mann nhi krta baas kaam se apne empty house mei aata hu apne dost Khali pann ke paas. 

Depression

Thak gyi hu logo ke aage smile kr kr ke. Jab andar se toot chuki hun.


There is a friend A of mine jo mere baare mein bohot jyada bitch krti hai and mere saamne mera well wisher pretend karti hai. I always think of cutting her of but the issue is that she’s my neighbor and we have same school friends circle. So if i lose touch wt her, she’s probably gonna go and talk shit about me to my other school friends. 
There’s a friend Y whose gf is my closest friend. We two go really well. But i never talked to this Y. But now suddenly Y talks to me due to his gf matter. 
Recently merko pata chala ki Y and A ne mere baare mein bitchinh ki hai. Y bolta hai baat mt batao and A se durr raho. But merko sab clear karne ka mann hai. Mene A ko 2-3 baar baat karne and milne kaha but voh taal rhi hai and voh kehti hai ki usne mere liye kuch nhi kaha parr usse mere liye Y ne galat kaha. Abh mujhe nahi pata kon sahi hai kon galat.
Merko naa A se baat karna hai and naa hi Y se. 
But Y se terms off karne se kahi meri close friend ke saath mera terms naa kharab ho jaaye bass yahi soch ke mein kuch bol nahi rhi hu.

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