A few weeks ago I talked to an online counseling or helpline thing. They advice me somethings but they also said I am feeling all of this because I might have a chemical imbalance. Chemical imbalance is where your brain isn’t able to produce too much or too less of a chemical in your brain. In my cases I have less of the chemical that makes you happy. I just wanna give up sometimes but I can’t because of all my loved ones. I just don’t know what to do. This has grew over the years, I had this thoughts before but not to a length where I cry in bathroom floor or wish can I ever be happy how my sister is happy. I just wish to be a happy girl again with no suicidal thoughts.