a 100 bad days make a 100 good stories. if you don’t screw up today, you won’t have any fun stories to tell tomorrow. this might sound absurd to whoever is reading this but i don’t mind screwing up. by screwing up i don’t mean im-all-up-for-playing-around-with-people i mean being spontaneous, wild, free. im 17 right now, with a decent amount of freedom and liberty that was given to me by my parents, im still quite rebellious. but i think that’s what makes life fun. we all tend to overthink and that is completely okay i do that too. but i try not to let it overpower my instinct. trust your gut and believe me your view towards life will change :) be the happy little ray of sunshine you never thought you could be. 

I love the song 100 bad days! You picked that line from there right?

Happy

Tired of crying and suffering.
Tired of crying because of insensitive parents and friends.
Need a place to breathe, relax, feel loved and feel happy.
Tired of crying and feeling hurt.
Desperately crying for help.
Can't take this anymore.
Please help me!


Depression

Add me i want a friend 

Friends

What do you do? When someone stops giving you importance?
Actually I was talking to a guy, who also was an ex-classmate. We met 4 days ago and he had to return back to his city. And after that he never even texts me.



Confusion

Today I realised that I'm so clumsy.

Frustration

Lost 

Anxiety

How do you know a friendship is over? choosing friends over girlfriend is fine.. I know I sound so bad right now... but I have literally heard them commenting mean things about me in front of him, and I never ever heard him defending me back.. 
I know friends are really important, but I have never seen them help him grow.. yes they would always push him to drink with them go on bike rides play dream 11 and all that... but never anything good.. I haven't ever asked him to prioritize me over them, but deep inside, sometimes I really be selfish and want my boyfriend to think of me, miss me, come to me unannounced, or just aisehi, without any motives or work.. 

Boyfriend

I feel overwhelmed and anxious and stressed most of the time since I got married. I married my long time boyfriend last year, but in this one year I’ve come across so many instances where I feel all alone. If I try to communicate my problems he always think I’m complaining. He I know is bad at communicating but I’m not, but somehow in past few months I’ve stopped putting my needs ands wants in front of him, but today i said that why and he retaliated again. He doesn’t like to be questioned or asked. Me being emotionally very sensitive, cry on little issues but his anger makes me scared and stops me from asking anything. I don’t know how to manage our marriage anymore his anger his priorities have nothing to do with me. It’s either only his work or family. I don’t know what to do 

Back on this platform after a long time
Since i have left , i have changed myself 
Gone from being alone to making many friends and one girlfriend , i totally love.

Its happening again , everyone has started leaving , the thing i fear the most and changed to my strength of being alone , now being in a social group after all , being alone haunts me again.

I don't know whats happned , my girlfriend i feel like try to find ways to talk to me , everytime we talk its about studies that too once in maybe 2 weeks, and if i ask something else she just states after exams.
I try to understand that exams are important and she might be busy , then i see her going to parties and hanging out with everyone else.
My friens left and maybe she is going too soon 
I dont know how i feel somedays are good somedays are bad , its just an ongoing cycle

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