Mochi @mochi9boba
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I just feel like giving up. I have many dreams left, silly ones, but still, they are the things that keep me going. Like I want to study in S.Korea and I found a scholarship that will help me go there. My parents still don’t know about this. My Maa wants me to do B. Pharma, knowing that I feel nauseous with hospital smells. I haven’t talked to my father for a whole year. The reasons are reasonable and it will take me some time to tell you the reason.
They want me to enter college with merit points and they know that I’m an average student. So, whenever there is an exam being conducted, they always say that if I fail, they will not let me study anymore. And the reason why they want me to enter college through scholarship is that they have exhausted all the money for my elder sister’s education at a private college. And they want my admission to be considered at all govt. colleges, which are shit, btw.
I cannot tell them that I want to study in Korea, so I study the language secretly. It’s mandatory to know the language and by giving some specific exams, I can be given some preference. If I tell them about this, they will surely tell me to back off.
But I know that if I back off, I will regret it my whole life and will hate them for the very reasons. They prefer my elder sister over me, considering that she is excellent at her studies, while I am an average student. Nobody understands that this is difficult for me. Not even my sister.
I know that the chances of me being accepted are low, but I can try, right? It’s better to try now than to regret later, right?
Yes dear, you should definitely give it a try, because you only regret the things that you don’t do, try doing a part time job, take a student loan, that might help with the financial crunch
Have faith, be positive, you will be fine
It is not like you are average or something, every person has the potential to reach where ever destiny has planned
And for that, all you need is to take time and go with the flow
P.S. I surely don’t know about your family, but keep it easy on your parents, I can tell you from my experience, that they would never want bad for you, maybe you will feel that they are not wishing the best for you, but trust me, this is almost never true
Mochi @mochi9boba
I know that they want good for me, but they never take my opinion into question, you know. But just like you suggested, I will try for the scholarship! Thank you~💛
And if u ever feel like talking… Give me a call
I am unable to find a way to share my number, tell me how to do it
I will be more than happy to hear u and help u
Dr. Surabhi Saxena
Yes yes yes… you should definitely try if you are getting the scholarship.
Mochi @mochi9boba
I will surely try~!💛💛
