Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

18yo college girl
how does it feel …
you are feeling completely different from the people around you .
You are sitting all day in your room, trying to do something,…
.you don’t have a single friend and you don’t know how to make friends in online too …because you get too emotionally attached … because you have been lonely all these years.Never had even a single close friends from class 7th to now(Because u were studious and other girls were not . so u didn’t bond with them well , or maybe you didn’t find someone close to ur heart , like you…)

. Till class 6 I had a very close friend. We also used to visit each others home. We were like a family.but after that I shifted to a city…so it all lost… and now this corona has destroyed all my plans of going into college and make friends…

At the end of the day you are feeling sad…seeing your peers having fun and posting photos and videos with their lovely families and friends.

what to do I can’t even focus on my academics. Im sure they are doing better in academics as well as in life than me.

and also with whom I express my feelings?? I even fear to let my peers know my feelings because I don’t want to feel miserable in other peoples eye…maybe…Should I express it to them too… and be honest with them… I even don’t know… Maybe is this my suppression of feelings causing me more pain …?