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ارادے ہیں فولادی ہِمتی ہر قدم
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Hope

I’m having a lot of head aches and my head is spinning I become breathless soon and my heart is beating very fast and I feel very very very anxious I don’t know the coz of me feeling this way can someone help? Or knows what this is? 

Anxiety

breathe if u love me

3am Thoughts

‏ذہنوں پہ صدموں کے بوجھ لیے
ہم نے مرنے تک تو جینا ہی ہے


I don't know how to even put words to explain what happened today. Today was definitely very scary for me. I will be explaining every single detail so its gonna very long. So grab a water bottle so u don't dehydrate. Let me just give you this much introduction about me that I'm a 17yrs  female (science student who is preparing next year for entrance/competitive exam).
So this situation actually started this week ago but I will start from yesterday night somewhere around 9PM where I was having trouble breathing. I thought it would be allergies or something. My airway wasn't compromised yesterday that much. I went outside for walk and came back in 5 minutes cuz it started raining.
Today morning I had extra classes (phy:4.5hrs and chem:2hrs) and I go to well-renowned coaching but they didn't had any medical facilities. I might have genetic asthma; I'm not a dr. but I am having this shortness of breathing problem since this year and also that asthma runs in my family but I haven't been tested for it yet. I do have my dads inhalers just in case. I stole it ngl.  
But my asthma/ shortness of breath started just 10 minutes before break. I actually felt my airway closing or narrowing and me not getting O2 properly and also that I was making wheezing sound. I had inhalers in my home and not in my bag, the only thing I had in my bad was anti allergy pills (one drug used in this pills are used for asthma attacks too but idk cuz its written on google). I didn't know what to do. My neighbor classmates started saying that "don't breath so loudly and don't make noise" as they were trying to concentrate at lecture. they had no idea what was happening to me.
The moment the sir dismissed us, I ran out of class for air. I didn't called my parents cuz I didn't wanted them to worry and my cousin brother who is a dr. cuz I thought he might be in college/hospital therefore I called my bf ( ik I am very young to be in relation but DUH... he might saved me from asthma attack) who also has asthma and has proper medication for this kinda purpose. I asked him quickly to check his medicines and to tell me weather does he have that drug or not cuz I didn't trusted google that much. he said it did and it will give relief in 30-45 minutes. I thanked him and wished him luck for tomorrow's NEET exam and hung up. I went inside the class and I felt very dizzy. I gave my bench partner the instructions of where those pills are in my bag cuz my head was very dizzy and I was barely breathing. I wasn't trying to create a scene in class but some people with concern asked me weather I was alright or not.  but this thing did spread in class as some people were eavesdropping on my conversation with my bf. I took pills and I did got relief by an hour.
The most outrageous thing about today was that I barely somehow managed back home and told my mom the whole story of what actually happened and pleased her to take me to dr. and get me checked for genetic asthma so if I did had it then I can start medication cuz this shit was getting serious. Her response was that she will think about it. My dad works in different state and is leaving tomorrow and my mom didn't even mentioned a single thing that happened today. What am I supposed to do if  this happen again. What if something serious happens next time and what's holding her back that "she has to think about it". Just thinking about this is making me anxious and breathless again and feeling that my airway is compromised. 
What am I supposed to do?
PS: Pardon me for spelling/ vocabulary/ grammar mistakes and for such long story. 
Ty if u read till end!!

Diseases

یادیں یاد آتی ہے
لمحے بھول جاتے ہے 

Addiction

Crying and the left side of my chest where supposedly my heart is,it's paining and I have to breath through my mouth cuz it's difficult to breath properly

Depression

You are sitting all fine and suddenly, you realise that your heart is racing, as if to win a race and your feet turn cold. You have your throat all dried up, and you are gasping for a little breath. There is a strange motion in the stomach, the one that happens when you are in a roller coaster while it goes down. Do you get what i am saying? 

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